madness immortality

12/2/2012

2012-02-12T02:38:00.003+08:00

Yay! my hair finally gets longer! *claps claps*

can't wait to play with my hair when it grows till the ideal length! :)

9/2/2012

2012-02-09T20:22:00.000+08:00

At times, we keep struggling to keep things at where they are, even though we know they would be gone one day. And we even try to preserve it when it's gone. This sounds REALLY noble. But wait, is noble, the right word to describe it? Or mere stupidity? Or perhaps try another word, let's say..courage?

But this is not a puzzle game of finding a perfect word to fit in. Else it would be like taking a job, with its description is to fit illogical with logic and to make it compatible. You can't paint black with white ink either.

But reality says that, if you are too busy with your hands preserving things that'd already been gone, you wouldn't have hands to catch when good things come in.

5/2/2011

2012-02-05T20:53:00.001+08:00

I find some special days present a strange moment of self-evaluation. so okay, valentine's day is coming up. I am totally not looking forward to it. Being single is great, you can stay up late, you are not obliged to answer to anyone, you can keep all the times to yourself. Alrite, I guess sometimes, it is not really that good isnt it? hmmmph!

But, to be honest, there is no need to be hurry when in comes to relationship thing. I am patient to wait for the moment to come. The moment when I am walking on the path of my life, and happen to see things and people. And just waiting, to meet a person. And when I found him, it's like a dejavu kind of feeling. And seeing laughter, warmth, trust. And love. And knowing that he is the right person for me.

Hah! what am I blabbering!

Dropped by to update my blog since it seems like dying here. But ended up crapping nonsense. DUHHH!

And bad things happened recently, pray that things would be just alright after the storm! Dont worry peeps, I am fine here.

Never forget, I am strong :)

22/1/2012

2012-01-22T00:00:00.005+08:00

“When I look back on my life it’s not that I don’t want to see things exactly as they happened. It’s just that I prefer to remember them in an artistic way, and truthfully the lie of it all is much more honest because I invented it. Clinical psychology tells us arguably that trauma is the ultimate killer. Memories are not recycled like atoms and particles in quantum physics. They can be lost forever. It’s sort of like my past is an unfinished painting and as the artist of that painting I must fill in all the ugly holes and make it beautiful again. It’s not that I’ve been dishonest, it’s just that I loathe reality.”

— Lady Gaga, The Prelude Pathétique

30/12/2011

2011-12-30T14:49:00.000+08:00

In just a day time, the calendar is going to switch from 2011 to 2012. It really gives a touche feeling, and an intense desire to reflect back about the year. 365 days, 8760 hours, 525600 minutes, 31536000 seconds. Every tick of the clock, every pace that we took, we grew, we changed, we advanced, we moved on. It may seem short somehow, still it had been a real long journey for some people. Before I start to round up my year, a little hint that this would going to be a long post, because I had came across a lot of things this year. To say, in my entire life so far, this had been the greatest year, not because too many good things that happened, but because the rainbow I had seen after the storm. And also the bad times I had been through, I knew I grew stronger.

***

I din't start off the year well. I remembered I used to be a sad potato, bothered by stabs of pricking feelings from a broken heart. I then went on the first half of the year, feeling so numb, but so stubborn to give up. I did not want to give up on a relationship that I had nurtured and persisted on, because I had swallowed every bitter pill down, hoping a sunny bright miracle would hit on. But I was wrong, so I went on telling myself to just throw the shit away and move on for many times, only in the end, I could no longer take the shits anymore. And I had Finally* broke up with my first. To say, it had been a long haul and a terrible experience, for some who know the truth would know why am I saying so. But I know I shouldn't be pointing finger, yet looking back, was it me who sucks in a relationship, or he had been such a jerk?

I then went on few months in trauma from what had happened, shivering every single morning, for my mind would naturally lock and replay the scenes that once happened. And some worse things came into my life afterwards, but gladly they had turned to good sides afterwards. Yet, I hardly bear those days. I cried in the middle of the night and morning, and blamed myself for being too weak. I couldn't find happiness, so I clubbed a lot, and real a lot, for I thought the ear-drum-cracking musics would smash those bitter feelings away. It was all the club songs and alcohols days.

But at that moment, I was glad that my internship experience had distracted me a lot. And slowly I recovered because of the hectic workload, and also the very cool and nice friends I had met over there. And frankly speaking, it was really a great experience I had been through, because for all the years I had been studying, I at least gotten an idea of what I might be working on in my future career, and meeting professionals in a big corporation? AWESOME.

So the internship ended in three months time, and afterwards, I had one more month left for my semester break. Regrettably, the happy ship seemed to be start sinking again. I hanged out late every single day and clubbed very often, for I couldn't bear the thoughts which would be running in my mind when I was alone. It really took a hell loads of medication to move on. This seemed very stupid, but that was just what I felt, and I would rather human would have control over their feelings so that they can erase off the all the negative feelings. But NO, we don't have the regime.

Then I moved on to my third and final year of my degree. It was hectic. Tons of assignments coming along the way, and to cope with them, I barely even had the time to rest sometimes. I barely club any longer, and rather spending my quality time with my friends. But still, we like to party sometimes, yet no longer for the same reason I club last time, it was in fact the other way round. :) I knew I had moved on.

And this December had really been a hitz. Credits to my friends, we had real good times together. From the places we visited, nice food we tasted, parties that we had thrown, some drinkings sessions as well, hangouts moments, and a tons more I barely able to name!

But to look back the entire year, I would say I feel glad for the people who had come into my life. I had really met a lot of people, be it touch-and-go, or some friends we still keeping in contact. They had really dawned on me some real important things in life, and listening to their experiences and perceptions, I could somehow take the factual or subjective objects into my life, and moved on as a more solid person.

So in short, from the beginning till the end, there had been a lot of transitions. I would say, there had been both good and bad changes that took place. For my entire life, this had really been a major switch of me as a person. And glad that few cool things came in this year too, like getting my first car, getting myself baby Galaxy SII, changed my dressing style, changed my make-up techniques, dolling up better (that's what my friends said!), and of course a loads more. And most importantly, ME - a person who barely gain weight had finally after some hard-forcing-eating-sessions, reached my targeted weight! At least I could look better in some dresses now. ;) But still, those superficial things do not beat any single element of my spiritual and mental transition. The people around had taught me and widen my views on things. And I may sound wrong to say that I am glad for the bad times I had been through, but if not because those bad things that happened, I wouldn't have been carried to where I am now.

***

So..you know my story for 2011, it is good to look back, but we all should give and leave back all the negative feelings to 2011. Moving on to 2012 very soon, if there is no world-end, it would be a great year ai'yeh! But anyhow, it would be a tough year for me in making decision since I am graduating soon! Yet what is along the way, I wish I could sort things out and make things better. And I wish the same thing to every single person out there too. But what's more important is everyone around us stays happy, healthy and safe, as well achieving good things in life. And that would be sufficiently enough to make us happy too.

May everyone have a great year ahead :)

I tripped, but I crawled up, because I had no choice.

But I am happy when I look back that I once fell hard.

Because if not because I had fallen, I wouldn't have to know the way to stand up.

And know the way to colour my life with my own brush.

-Happy New Year-

11/12/2011

2011-12-11T11:47:00.001+08:00

I have forgotten the time when I woke up in the morning, I feel warm instead of cold.

Babbling in the morning, guess my fingers like to hit on the keyboard too much.

And oh, I blog-walked. and it seems like a wonder to see how people share the same feelings, and even using the same word to describe that exact feeling. And seeing the way they tell bout their lives, I somehow take the fiction or non-fiction, objects or non-object to convince myself and giggling behind and cheer myself up. But I am no longer a sad potato like I used to be half a year ago, when I had the disability to even tell myself to throw the shits behind and live my very own life! And when time passes and the scenes changing, I am actually where I am now.

-- Don't set things too far off , the view might be picturesque , but too far off the niche means you will be losing it one day.

10/12/2011

2011-12-11T01:35:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, people want something to happen so badly. We always hope there is a leap for us to take. But beautiful things happen naturally, they might be on their way too, we just need all the patience, and grab it and hold it when it happens.

Of course there are also bad things that happen. And we thought the universe is conspiring against us. But there is always light at the end of every tunnel, and maybe the universe has lined up well for you out there.

The universe is in motion constantly. Butterfly flaps its wings. And machine is programmed to take things to the end-products. So there is a reason why big thing in life happens. Because some little things that bring us there, and how it changes our directions, our behaviours or our decisions, and after all we would look back and be grateful of how those 'littles' to have come into our lives. It would carry you from the beginning till the end, and makes things happen, at the right place and the right time, and things seem well-programmed.

But sometimes, the greatest thing in your life might not be the things that you do, but the things that happen to you. I'm not saying you shouldn't be taking action for your lives, but you have to and you will. It is just doing the right thing, at the right place, and at the right time.

And your life would never be the same.

19/11/2011

2011-11-19T23:40:00.001+08:00

Mr A and Ms B are in love. Mr A said Ms B is the right one, the one he truly loves. So does the girl. They sacrifice their bodies for physical involvement. Mr A, " There is nothing wrong with it, we are in love and if you do, you will understand too." Few years later, Mr A broke up with Ms B and is now in a relationship with Ms C. "Ms C is incredible! I had never been so in love!"

***

Mr D and Ms E are in love. They hold on for any physical intimacy. They choose to protect each other before marriage. And yes, they only have their first kiss in their wedding.

Two couples. They used the same word - love - to explain what motivated them to act in opposite ways. But were both couples talking about the same thing? One justified by enjoying each other's bodies before marriage. The later wouldn't barely have physical involvement before marriage, and under the word of love, they choose to wait and love was the fuel for their integrity and gave them all the patience to wait.

One word. two definitions.

16/11/2011

2011-11-16T15:32:00.001+08:00

Something to mention about - "DISTANCE"

It is not something to mention as in distance, which means -- "distance". And it is not going to be a topic of random thing of long distance relationship aka LDR. It is actually something about keeping a distance. But not relating to something of keeping a distance of dark scorching sides of things. It is not about to anyone you dislike or hate. But, keeping a distance, because of your uncertainty, because of your own good and the others too.

Let me get into the topic. Lately, I have learnt to take things slow. Pace by pace, no leaping, no cheating. But somehow, as you practise so, maybe another person doesn't. Saying so, is like wanting to taste a condensed sweetness, but without allowing time to produce a nice condensed dessert, is like eating icing without cake. It can be sweet, but ends up making us sick. Or a craving that wasn't rightously satisfied. Or better described, superficial. It is the same applies to oven-cooked food. What heats up fast, colds fast.

To curb this, I start to realize, sometimes, when you make your pace slower, you tend to see more and wider. Hence, practise patience, to let the eyes of my soul to look more, to contact more and to learn more. Again, once bitten twice shy. When you are too tied up with something, it would somehow create an artificial environment as how you see the thing.You need a break. You just need to get away for a bit.

I try to get further by putting a wall in between then. Because the world tells us that, Love is beyond our control. I may sound absurb by agreeing two contrasting things. Just because we think, love is beyond our control. We allow ourselves to behave irresponsibly and giving excuses to our actions. Yes, but if love is out of our control, we can't possibly be held responsible. And yes, we know we behaved rashly. We know we might have hurt others in the process, but we couldn't help it. We were in love. But do you actually know that, we choose these behaviours?

And because of all these, I am currently stuck. I am keeping a distance because of uncertainty. Self-uncertainty. No one wishes to hurt others or to get hurt. And because of this fear, I ponder, maybe it is something wise to keep a little distance away. So that, you won't fall, and the other person, too. And because of my effort is pulling a distance, even the heart doesn't feel so, I feel so stupid. Because, all these things done, is not because I am trying to illustrate things and make it sounds like it really does make sense, but because it is my problem and I am denying it by taking all other things that make sense to make something about myself which doesn't make sense, to actually make sense. I am denying my own mistakes, don't I? I am denying that I am still in fear, and give excuses to myself in allowing to act, by illustrating to you. But what deep down my heart knows well, that I am fear of giving any chance to others and to myself. Could any more possibly make sense? I wish someone could cross an "X" over my confessment and correct me that it is not my problem. But could it be still savioured when you already know the answer? And expect something doesnt make sense to make you feel yourself actually acting sane?

Pull me out, would you?

13/11/2011

2011-11-13T12:47:00.001+08:00

I have just deleted a photo from my previous post. Because, there is no point to cling on thing that doesn't even deserve a second chance. Hah! Feeling great for this single thought that struck me. Question, would I cling on this thought for long? I wish I would and I do enway. :)

But feeling awful again by the way, was totally wasted last nite. And I had a great wonderful night with my friends @ Hennessy Artistry parteh! It was so awesome that my hand was never empty with glasses of Hennessy, so yeah, it'd totally gotten me, down. Poor thing, still can't learn to drink, only know to be drunk. *giggling*

But anyhow, some little random thing happened recently. Glad that I had grasped something out of it. Oh by-the-way, a new thing learnt: Relationship is problematic. Single is just so fucking great! ;D

I think I am the one who is problematic..*inside joke*

Alrite. Pictures time! teehee..

*heart* the tag so much! taken when I was wasted though. =.=

The stage is far more awesome than expected!

Dinner with Michelle before heading to party ♥

"If camwhoring is a disease, I think I am already dead"

Ciao~ ♥♥♥

8/11/2011

2011-11-08T23:00:00.000+08:00

Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead.

I hate to turn up out of the blue, uninvited.

But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hope you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded.

That for me,

it isn't over.

'Someone like you' - Adele

They are memories made.

Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

-tingyi-

7/11/2011

2011-11-07T13:48:00.000+08:00

Let's assume you are doing a shopping, one crucial shopping with your readily cart. You see this and that nice, but you can't make a choice yet. So you decided to shop and browsing around at the other shops, cracking your head with your choices. SO looking around. Maybe in the end, you ended up with empty hands. Because of your past shopping experience was bit suckie and you had learnt a lesson, of don't simply shop around or you would regret with the things that you had bought. :)

Are you ready to shop? Or you are afraid of the choices you would be making? huh! I should point the finger at myself ai'yeh?

Don't expect to see a rainbow without little rain.

3/11/2011

2011-11-03T22:42:00.003+08:00

Today I asked myself a question.

"What is the point of keep holding on. Of meltdowns?"

I thought I grow stronger each and everyday. Yep, strong enough right now, emotionally, and a chain is only as strong as its weakest link. I practice, I constraint, I force myself, not to crush, not to fall, not to like, anyone. I have been too much of fear. I prefer it empty, even though emptiness seeks me beneath my empty heart. I want a shield, over my feelings, over my fears so that I wont be seeing darkness in the path I am moving on. Each and everyday, I tell myself, I AM MOVING ON GREAT.

Had it been because I have to much to fear? Or because I had broken down emotionally? Moving on to half a year soon. Used the word "moving on" and I am pondering, had I moved on?

*Screw me*

31/10/2011

2011-10-31T01:47:00.001+08:00

I duno what is it in my mind. It is so crammed. I see clouds, fog, rainbow, rains, thorns. I feel warmth, tortured, relived, fictitious, terrible, awesome, pain. *Preposterous*. They are palpitating, like a motion that my sight failed to catch. So fast, so blur, yet so clear. Am I falling, or am I rising.

White. Grey. Black.

Grey is normal, grey is good, grey is neutral. But it is a tendency, for grey to turn black, and lose the sanctity of white. Dear grey, which one do you choose?

Rose is red, rose is adorable, rose is beautiful. But it will never smile the same way, as it is for the last time when you see it blooming red. Roses withered, roses died, roses gone. Roses turned brown and dry.

What am I typing here? I am feeling awful.

Time to hit the sack!

26/10/2011

2011-10-26T11:50:00.002+08:00

Last night, a friend of mine texted me and woke me up. He was down because of some quarrels between he and his gf. Weird thing was that, I thought I could always talk people out to feel better, advising people, or stuff, but I seem to have so lost touch with that kind of thing. I tried to sleep back afterwards, my thoughts then trying to dig the last time I had a quarrel. All I could think of was just a bitch who refused to pay me after banging my car. DUH!

But at least, I am happy to have left, "u know", which saved me a lot from quarrels, lies and a broken heart. I hardly remembered how it feels like or how it seems like, but I guess it is something that would upset me and tear me apart. I have chosen my own happiness. But the visage of happiness, makes me ponder, how to define It?

I would just move on and see.

p/s: I loveeee Barney Stinson (How I Met Your Mother). What is it? Legend - wait for it.. - adary!! I am Awesome. :)

My post seems a little bit' crazy now. haha..

15/10/2011

2011-10-15T01:26:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, I stare at the sky, the clouds the shimmering golden sunshine together with little birds flying high. it almost drown me. But my thoughts still win everything else. Transcending each and every strand of calmness. I do silly things, I am trying and working hard on things, I am running as fast and far as I could. I tripped, I wounded, I yelled, I suffocated, and working hard on reviving. Things do not work out, but unnecessarily to be erased and forgotten entirely. Maybe I had not worked hard enough, but I guessed I had tried hard and I had crossed the bar. I choose not to tell, not to reveal, not because I shouldn't nor I couldnt, but because no one would understand. I'm typing this post out using a mobile. :)

14/10/2011

2011-10-14T00:03:00.003+08:00

Black and white.

Colour and fades.

To see clearly or not to?

It must be a steal, a steal of truth.

A pinch of mirth,

or a mere disappointment?

*smirking*

10/10/2011

2011-10-10T21:01:00.004+08:00

H.A.P.P.I.N.E.S.S

Some people live their lives, searching for things, things that they may appreciate.

There are thousands millions zillions of things in the world, some can be touched, some can be felt, some are unseen. Thousands trillions zillions of people striving for them. People doing crazy things each and every day. Some are right things and some are wrong.

BUT, there is nothing eternal. Happiness could be replaced by tears. Morning will turn into dark night. Stars will die. Trees will withered. Earth will be gone one day. Even the sun will stop burning its flame. and Love will fade. There are expiry dates, some are certain, some remains riddles.

I do not believe in eternity any longer. "Madness immortality"? I am giggling.

But, just do whatever, that makes you happy. It is A life. You live once and the only once. People tend to define life, but not sure about their own lives, had they made enough? Had they strove hard enough? Had they been happy enough? They said, life is an addition of loving, subtraction of hatred, multiplication of appreciation and division of complication. Never-the-less, life is not an equation, it is not a mathematical theory. Life is something people live on.

So fuck yeah! Just live the life you want it to be, as long as you seek happiness in it.

Life is a riddle.

29/9/2011

2011-09-29T02:02:00.010+08:00

Sometimes shits happen and you just screwed up or mess up with your lives. You know the thing you are doing is not right, you know you are making a mistake, you have conscience. Question, why are you still doing it?

But there are certain things in life where you know it is a mistake but you don't really know it is a mistake, because the only way to really know it is a mistake is to make the mistake and look back and say "Yep. That was a mistake." So, really, the bigger mistake would be to not make the mistake, because then you go your whole life not really knowing if something is a mistake or not. And, damn it, I have made no mistake! I have done all this - MISTAKE FREE! You are not going to learn, and you are not going to know that it is a mistake!

Note that, I am not asking you to make mistakes and screw up your whole life. Not to even mention a life-time mistake. But do remember, sometimes, just make a beautiful mistake. Take it, deal with it and move on, and someday, you would grasp and proud of making the mistake that made you mistake-free.

A perfect person is not perfect without making mistakes,

and

A life is not beautiful, if it is mistake-free.

2011-09-27T20:44:00.000+08:00

-lavoa-

27/9/2011

2011-09-27T18:14:00.004+08:00

Being single is not sad, at least I enjoy it at the moment. What is sad is giving up hope on moving on to the next or a right person. Maybe I am not really giving up on love, but in a state of worn out and tired? Just forcing self not to want it. Force hard.

But at least, time doesn't lie. So, let time tells.

"your heart just break, that's all. But you can't judge, or point fingers. You just have to be lucky enough to find someone who appreciates you."

- Hepburn.

Thanks youthiam for sharing this. It did dawn on me on something else. :)

23/9/2011

2011-09-23T15:09:00.007+08:00

I was drunk last night. To me, getting drunk has never failed to make me feel suckie. Hot, burning liquor in my stomach, and no matter how much water I quenched, it would never get diluted. Together with dizzy head and heavy eyelids like jizz gotten in the eyes. oh fuck, i'm talking cock aiyeh. And because of that, I was made panting all the whiles. While I was panting, I worried that hyperventilation attack would hit me, again. and luckily it din't.

My thoughts then wandered around to the last ventilation attack I had, second last attack, third, past past past so on. tsk.

The very last time I had, I was in a car. Someone was beside me at the driver sit. I was crying, so badly, and it ruined my make up of the day, which was ready for a very wonderful outing. I hardly remember the conversation, oh well I remember, but I don't feel like digging my thoughts which I'd tried hard to bury. Yes, I remember very well, a tongue of thousand knives was stabbing me right on my heart, my expectations, my trust, my faith. Words and words prickled and crammed into my brain, I could hardly take them, I was made panting. Panting so badly, left me struggling with my own breath. I tried so hard to control it but I lost all my energy and I couldn't even open my eyes. I was begging. Not to harm me with words, while I did nothing wrong. I tried to run out from the car with the little energy left. I felt a strangle on my neck, and was hit hard on my face. I begged again, yelling pain. Tears couldn't stop coming out from my eyes, they wet my entire face. I was panting SO heavily, my hands were shaking and numbed. I tried to push away the force that was applied on me, but I COULDN'T! I couldn't. My head was dizzy and I hardly control my moves. I could black out at any moment. Words and words of thousand knives, they never stopped. i felt pain on my hand while I was trying so hard struggling to release myself, I was tied with a seatbelt. I struggled again, and I felt scratches and cuts on my hand. I yelled, I begged, I tried to run. but..I was pushed hard on my face, with a strangle that chocked me. I wished I just die at the moment, it was so pain, inside and outside. The struggle, the pain together with hyperventilation attack at the same time, I was made so helpless. My body was so pain, I wish a stranger could come and smash the window to pull me out, to save me! But no one! I felt my blood was blocked at some parts of my body while bruises took over, I never stopped struggling, NEVER..and only, cuts and bruises were what I got in return. I wished, the ventilation attack could just make me black out entirely till I die and I would be living in a world with no pain.

***

I hardly remember when was the second last, but my thoughts went back again to the time, someone was yelling at me. You must have thought I had done something wrong, I guess proving how much you appreciate a person is something wrong? I burst into tears. Such a stupid thought that the words coming out from the mouth would stop when the eyes saw me crying, in deep pain. I thought sorry was the word that would replace the words and words of thousand knives. In fact, the trigger was pulled, I was panting, fighting with laboured breath. Falling on the ground, while I had no control over my moves, not even a strand of energy. I thought I would be looked after when ventilation attack hit me once again, I thought the tongue would stop biting with its fangs. But it never stopped, and my dizzy head helped me to get through..I blacked out..

I have a lot more to think back, and it would be a repeating story. And the best part? I had never heard any apology after whatever that had happened, Every Time. Nor the last. I thought someone whom I love, too, would fight an apology for me, but she din't even care.

It has been long. YET, THE FLASH BACK'S NEVER STOPPED HAUNTING ME.

I am still stuck in a state of phobia.

You must have forgotten that you said you would love me forever.

-tingyi-

in tears again.

18/9/2011

2011-09-18T11:27:00.004+08:00

Where could I possibly get this shirt from? Hmmm..

-lavoa-

15/8/2011

2011-08-15T16:54:00.012+08:00

It has been a messy period for relationship, while some just made a pace into it, some just broke up, of which I had just did, with my oh-first. Well, people just asked me to get another one. But everyone should know that once bitten twice shy and I cant just expect the moment I fell, there would be a person pulling me up right afterwards, ayeh? And...picky? A sure for every single girl.

Well, it is a fact that every girl fears. Because guys are tougher, inside and outside (I might be wrong, but it seems true among those I know). That they could get a new one right afterwards and not giving a damn to the previous one, or even when they are in a relationship. but because girls have too much of fear, that our chances are so much lower! And we are more fool in the damn thing called LOVE.

I decided to post about this after hitting Dawn's blog, not to say I fancy her, but one of her posts did give me that kinda of 'touché' feeling. So basically, she has done a post about honoring your wife, from the Mars Hill Blog, and I find it to be a must-read for guys and also girls (in order to pick!). Ohh yea, does the "wife" word sounds too strong for you? :)

But why not to say, to every guy who called yourself a MAN, to be finding only a girlfriend instead of a wife? Let me explain more as how Dawn did. Dear Gentlemen, you’re NOT looking for a girlfriend if you are single. You’re not looking for a ~~bedmate~~ roommate or cohabitation partner. You’re looking for a WIFE. To be clearer, you must honour her while dating, and most importantly you must honour the relationship.

And Dear GENTLEMAN, before getting in a relationship, please make sure you are not:

The flirt guy
The female buddies guy
The porn video guy
Spare-tyre needy guy
The wandering eye guy

If you are, you are not honouring the relationship and you are not honouring your partner.

Not just honouring the relationship, but you should too, honour her physically.

"You know what, gentlemen? You are stronger than your woman" - Dawn

If a man gets into a fight with a girl, it is never a fair fight. Let me ask you guys. Do you ever:

hit her?
grab her?
push her?
restrain her?
threaten her by raising your hand or giving a violent look?
get right on her face?

If you did, I SHAME ON YOU. "you pick your woman, what a joke."

Most of the time, women walk around and think of their safety and men rarely do. What if it is worse when a woman gets together with a man and have to worry her safety more? When she is being attacked, it is an abuse. But what if when she is attacked and can't run away? Captive? He might then apologize, saying sorry that he did not mean to do that. O.H. I have met an asshole in my life previously that he telling the girl that he is not sorry at all for being physically abusive because the girl is not the one he loved the most. Comment about this? Muthafucking asshole? I think there is a necessary for a birth of a new word to define that exactly, dont you think?

BUT AND ANYWAY,

Girls, if a guy ever hit you, it is a SIN.
There shouldnt be any excuse for their acts.

Some block-headed bastards might think that men should be the ruler of the family or whatever that called, and think that it is alright to be the bully. There is nothing uglier than this thought and to hit your woman. It is disgusting.

What's worse if you force yourself on your woman. Yea you can tell the whole world "why not? she is mine". But in fact, you are a rapist.

And other than honouring your partner physically, dont put Verbal aside too.

How do you speak to your partner? Have you ever risen your voice? "Some of you guys would say, “I would never hit a woman.” How about with your tongue?"

Shame on you.

It is even disappointing when men turn relationship into a job description. He may said he done his part, and she does hers. "I have been good. I don't hit her. I don't yell at her." Oh yea, but you don't love her. You dont care, you dont connect, you dont encourage her. Or in other words, you failed her.

But I know there are some fools out there, who would deny being in a relationship. Do you honour your another half? "If you are comparing your wife with the other woman out there who might be better off, before that, are you the best man in the world? Do your wife not comparing you with the other men out there, and still be together with you?" Be appreciative, gentleman.

I don’t care if you apologize, do you repent and lead?

Be a man.

-lavoa-

9/8/2011

2011-08-09T11:55:00.004+08:00

Since I have gotten the pictures, so here it goes of what bakery things I have done! :)

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*TAR DANG!!*
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The very first cake that I baked - New York Cheesecake with strawberry topping.
Baked it for a friend for his birthday and my friends are getting jealousss
Lynn wanted me to bake for her birthday too..LOL

Another shot, bottom crust is made from crushed graham cracker (which took me a real long time to find the best way to crush it completely) together with butter and sugar. And see the yummy yellowish layer? I missed that out too, felt like digging a hole and have a try first too before giving the cake to my friend. teehee..oh hey, not forgotten to mention about the cake board, see it? my sis bought it for me, which only costs few cents but the petrol fare to travel and giving the board to me..hmmm..*covering up my face*

Pineapple bread pudding - made from toasted bread, dipped in melted butter and mixing together with eggs, sugar, cornflour, raisin ( stupid me bought the super dooper expensive organic raisin, regretted so much! D: ). Bake it for 35 mins after the mixture is well incorporated. Simple rite? hehe..serve it warm together with chilling whipping cream and you can start NOM NOMM ;D

Chocolate pudding pie - I used Digestive for the crust. And this pie is another one which drained my purse!! but it doesnt really worth it compared to the cheesecake (since i like cheese and dont really fancy chocolate thingy). Baked this for fun though course I think I should give chocolate a try! lol..I used Hershey's milk chocolate chips for the filing (as well as egg yorks, milk, sugar, cornflour), and heavy cream with sugar and vanilla extract for the top layer (beaten). Oh not forgotten to story about the chocolate curvy strips i used to decorate the top. I happened to shop around KLCC when I was sending a document to client's place so I passed by Godiva, and tot of buying a bar for the decoration and there it went, the Godiva topping! But I wonder what if the filing is also from Godiva, I would be eating grass by now. LOL

Oh not forgotten the very yummy custard pudding I'd made! you should really give this a try! It's simple and tastes great! :D just simply cut a swiss roll for the base - I prefer the oat thingy swiss roll from RT Pastry, and boil the custard powder with milk (make sure you dissolve the custard well in room temperature water before boiling it), add in sugar, stir well and wait for it to turn slightly stiffer before pouring on the swiss roll. and the jelly part, i prefer to add in lemon juice for the refreshing taste. And the flavouring part? I just used the juice from the fruits cocktail and also some mixed crushed fruits. On top of the jelly, I added on whipping cream and yogurt (though they dont really mix well, should have used only yogurt instead. And oh blueberry yogurt tastes great on it! :D). And final touching? Fresh fruits for sure! :D
see the photo below..

Niceeee? teehee..

Cherry pineapple cake, oh well, nothing much to tell , course dont even feel like recommending, except I found out that brown sugar topping is not a bad thing too! oh I charred the brown sugar topping at the first place. stupid me dint pay attention to the pan while decorating the top. grrr~

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Not forgotten to update u guys what I have been doing recently! :D

-Life at Ernst & Young after the peak period-

This is called F.R.E.E.D.O.M :D
Oh well, I am working in tax department aiyeh? Instead of art? LOL

I likie this one among the three! hehe..

Oh well, ever since I broke free after the peak, I have been just strolling around and passing my time with nothing in the office! Just went to IRB at Jalan Duta this morning for some office matter. Then chit chat with my senior and also my dearly colleagues. And blogging rite now, gosh! I M SO DARN FREE!! haha

And lastly, gonna end my post with a picture of shihting and me ♥

I like her cutiee look in this pic! ♥ ♥ ♥

Alrite, been a long post, ciao first people and stay tune for my next ♥

-lavoa-

5/8/2011

2011-08-05T09:28:00.002+08:00

Hellooo bloggie! and HELLOO over there!! oh yesh I am typing another post again! tehee..and you should guess where I am now. office.. lazing off. *hush hush kayy* ;D

And now, the very peak period is over and I could swing my chair from left to right then left then right, doing nothing. Today, I even brought my manicure stuff to the office! LOL would I dare to colour my nails in the office is another story though. hehe..

Oh anyway, another piece of secret to tell, that..I actually started baking! gonna create a baking diary soon! haha..but too bad I couldnt share the pictures now, cause the pics are in my lappie. =( but dont worry guys, would share it soon over here! *promise* :)

would also share other pictures in my office soon too! so HEY, make sure to drop by yeah! and dont be surprised after reading my last post (about the preparation of making my very first cake - New York cheesecake) I would be moving on to a lot of other niciieee stuff that I bake so afterwards! lol i am over-describing things :D

I think I cant be long over here since no pictures are with my now :( so i think that's all for today. See yeah soon! ♥

*continue shaking my chair from left to right, then left, then right again*

-lavoa-

16/7/2011

2011-07-16T18:54:00.006+08:00

I shall blog about today since I am free now! tehee..waken up by early sunshine this morning, and I'd got an important mission to do! ------> buying cheesecake ingredients! *tar dang* oh well, this is my very first time too!

Just few days ago, I googled about the recipes and also ingredients in very details and also searched for places to buy. So i came across this "springform pan" and found out that a shop over Jaya One is selling it! so thrilled!! and also planned to buy other ingredients at a store located at Taman Megah. So this morning, I happily drove under the guidance of my GPS, was shocked that when i scrolled across the routes, I had to use KESAS highway. so........I happened to trust my gps VERY WELL. It then leaded me to KESAS, then i was told to take the first turn after turning into the RM1.60 toll. So, i happily following my gps, and tot that I was exploring a cool way to reach PJ. BUT..it turned out that, after I took the very first turn after KESAS toll, LDP exit toll was in front of me. SO! I happened to pay another RM1.60 to stroll around and stuck in the traffic around USJ area then to my homie area?!!! Stupid GPS!!! was cursing it so badly in my car this morning! RM3.20 going into vain and what about my time? trying to be funny with me lah! *alrite..i should chill......*

But after around an hour I managed to reached the very correct location, Jaya One. though I did had problem finding it at first, asked the security guard there oso he blur. =.= The car park there was soooo dark, kinda horrible for a girl like me who shopped alone. So, I looked at the address there, stated D-11-1, so I went to ask around the people there how could I get to the 11th floor. then the lady told me that the whole building dont have 11th floor. WTH?!! So I said nvm then, i would go explore the building on my own. I then took the lift, pressed at every floor, from the highest to the lowest. Oh enway, it turned out to be that the store is at the lowest floor. swt..I then entered the store, asked about the springform pan, but the lady over there told me that it is sold out! SAD weih! travelled so far for nothing! I then asked her is there anything for me I could find at her store for cheesecake, but she said no. ='( she then suggested me to go to Cold Storage at the Basement floor. I then took the lift, went down to basement, then was walking walking walking walking walking and walking at the basement area. only to find out that I was L.O.S.T. then I kept on walking, even walked up to ground floor, then walked walked walked again, FINALLY, I knew where I was. I was at the other end of Jaya One and had to walk a very long way to get to Cold Storage.

I then stared at the sky and asking what day is it for me. duhhhhh...

So, finally after a long search and lost, I was in!! Like my homie area dont have Cold Storage and had to travel an hour to get there..okay okay, no more grumbling. So I went to search for the pan, but it turned out to be a disappointment again. sad siao. In the end, I was grabbing few household stuff, then I browsed for other stuff again, and thought of just buying all the ingredients over there. So, I went to pick up unsalted butter, graham crackers (took me SO long to find it!!), sugar, flour, eggs and stuff..Only after I had bought it and made my way to the car park, I realised that those stuff was too heavy that I injured my hand and I dint even notice it! lumps of blood on my hand for carrying those stuff and I was shocked that I dint feel anything at all. lol

So after that, under my very smartttt gps guidance, I managed to travel to Taman Megah. Though it is very close to Jaya One, but it took me an hour to reach there! stuck at the Jaya One roundabout for almost an hour weih! But was so glad when I saw the name of the shop "Bake with Yen"~! =D oh again, bad day, only managed to find a far far away parking, so i walked far far away to reach there. And guess what?! the shop was so packed!!!! I think it should be very famous then! haha..grabbed a lot of stuff there coz they are so much cheaper!! then I thought of my very stupid idea to have shopped at Cold Storage. *cry cry* But enway, proud of myself that I was doing my shopping in such an efficient manner! lesser than half an hour weih! and my hands were full of stuff till not even a single thing can fit in anymore. stupid me should have gotten myself a basket..

And finally..I am done! drove back home..oh btw, forgot to tell u guys I spotted an Aston Martin on my way!! and also a weird X6?? or what I wasnt so sure too. looked like an X6 but it was so tanky and macho looking. LOL! hmm..so so so, everything took me more than 4 hours and I was so tired, again. worst thing, I had to carry everything back to my very 4th floor apartment. grrrrrrr..

Oh btw, planned to go Puchong with my ji mui tomorrow coz there would be an event of blogshop owners selling their stuff over there. it is called Bazaar something. But I think I have to wise use my money tomorrow, coz my purse is so angry at me today already. =(

But after all, hope that my very first Newyork Cheesecake would be an aweeeesome one! tehee..baking it next week and I am taking a day off coz I am so lazy to work, AGAIN!!! i really do wish that none of my seniors would find out my blog, or else I would be dead like a doorknob..

Okie okie, a long post, so i gonna ciao dy for my dinner! bye~ *hugs hugs*

got a new profile picture for my fb! :D lazed around at work camwhoring. hehe..

-lavoa-

2011-07-03T16:27:00.006+08:00

Alrite people! Think it is time for me to blog about my internship experience in tax division at Ernst & Young. Had been there for a month, so it probably means that I had been having a month of lifeless weekdays. And since it is corporate tax peak period now, I have been working like a cow, sumore my manager always asks my group members to stay late. *cry*

First day of work, it was all so good, though my senior dint really guide me how to do the tax queries to customer, so I used the whole day to figure things out, making the accounts tally to each other. Perhaps, it was good that my senior left me on independent learning and it had really made me to learn more on my own! :) but enway, even it was only just the very first day, I already felt like smashing my keyboard at the computer..oh well, numberssss...

And things get better after some time, as I was able to blend in with seniors and also to complete my work in a more efficient manner. And oh not forgotten to mention a senior gor gor. I wish he doesnt find out my blog..He is a very very shy gor gor, who always asks me to do work. But at least he would guide me. And I started to try to run out of his sight becoz I am so scared of doing his work ever since he asked me to OT!! feel bad..hehe..and also Kak Syaiz, another senior of mine, whose workload is crazy, and I have to check my inbox every single morning becoz she would email me to get stuff from her table, and should start working like a camel. what's more, when she assigns me doing tax computation for a company, it comes in a whole set! tax comp, letters, forms and lampiran. that could take a whole day, and what shall I do with other seniors' work then? sob sob...

but enway, the best thing is that I got a bunch of friends working together with me! and the lunch time is so great becoz we eat in a big gang! :D and the best thing after all, Lynn is sitting just beside me! feel privileged weih!!

oh i forgot something!! as my group is a busy tax group, I used to work overtime. my friends used to joke around during working time, but no one dares to joke with me after 5.30pm. It is just so darn obvious that my mood is shitty down and fed up with my work. but recently, i 'seng mok' dy! I finished and passed my work back late to my senior so that they cant get back to me again by 5.30pm. and since i am no longer assigned with any work by 5.30pm, i would run out office punctual. and yea, u heard me, i RUN. sumore using a side door so that my manager not able to see me escaping from the office. cool rite? ;D

well, after all, that's my working life so far. and hate the part when i have to wake up early. sometimes even alarm fails to wake me up on time, but luckily it snoozes. then preparing myself, and get ready..for the traffic jam? go bek home also stucked in jam. used LDP back and it took me 2 hours! and starting next week I am changing to federal coz by luck I tried once and it only took me half an hour! what a huge difference I know!!

alrite alrite, hope I dint bore u with my internship stuff. I feel bored working too! but have to try my best to keep myself busy with something at the very moment at least. :)

I likey this picture coz I look like a vampire! ;P

Turning in early tonite so that I could wake up early again for tomolo's blue-ish Monday. So, ciao people! *hugs*

-lavoa-

2011-07-03T05:00:00.002+08:00

Helo people!!! and YAY that i am typing again rite now! ;D welcome back? *cheerssss*

Yep, we decide on our own fun, we think positive, we enjoy, we dance out all the rubbish! Becoz we live our lives! I cheers for all the joy, all the things that I have lost, the meaning of laughter, the meaning of friendship, the meaning of freedom, the meaning of non-obligated. And i found the meaning of life! I never regretted on the very decision I had made, because I learnt to stand up. And it is real great, to see me in this way too. Yes, I love myself now. =)

This should be the best post I had so far, and i am liking it. :D

-tingyi-

2011-06-09T23:26:00.001+08:00

Happiness was a dream of mine. It is now a friend of mine. =D

2011-06-02T22:45:00.005+08:00

why do we broke up, when the time I need someone the most? Kinda freaked out for not having a shoulder to cry on, or to hug for comfort..things are really not going well for me recently..felt like a loser when i am wishing that you could be here for me..

today is also my mom's birthday, bought a cake for her, hope she is happy, despite.....

and my gastric is getting more and more serious recently..

hoping for better.

-tingyi-

2011-05-30T12:27:00.002+08:00

I am looking forward to a better tomorrow with cheers and laughters,

and leave back what shall be left on yesterday.

2011-05-30T12:20:00.004+08:00

i looked back again at my older posts,

and i asked myself,

why i can't be the old self again?

-tingyi-

2011-05-28T00:21:00.003+08:00

Had i loved the wrong person?

What did i get in return for loving you so deeply?

Why can't I let go?

To give infinite chance for you hitting me?

To give infinite chance for you to break my heart?

For you to tear me apart?

and to tear LOVE apart?

I am just killing myself slowly,

and breathing sorrow till the very last breath.

And may I revive again.

Help me..

2011-05-06T12:36:00.000+08:00

在爱情里，应该爱一个爱你的人，而不是只有你爱他的人。在一起近两年，结果到最后换来的是你亲口对我说我只是你的玩具。还动手打我。痛！是心痛！我不能这样了！我爱错了！虽然是还爱着你，但现在我选折爱自己！我要爱我自己！

Chris Medina

2011-03-05T21:22:00.003+08:00

His name is Chris Medina, and the touching story behind his American Idol participation had hit the world. It had been eight years he has been with his girlfriend, Juliana Ramos and they have been engaged for two years. Just before their marriage, his fiancée met with an accident and left her suffering from brain damage.

Watching his videos and listening his song really did make me felt touched. Should really listen to his great song, 'What Are Words'. And here's the part I like or perhaps, admire the most -

' Cuz what kind of guy would I be if I was to leave you when you need me most.

What are words, if you don't mean them, when you say them.

What are words if there are only for good times, then they don't.'

Such a good guy who keeps his promise even during bad times. Wondering would he stay determined for the rest of his whole life? And would I be finding one or had I? Hmm..really leaves us to ponder.

But at least, do pray that miracle happens. And yea, he got a beautiful fiancée. =)

-lavoa-, currently listening to What Are Words..

28/1/2011

2011-01-28T21:13:00.003+08:00

I had a dream last night. things were still the same.

While i woke up, i felt pain, in my heart.

I thought it would just be another day, with daily routine; but i have no idea of what to do next, and don't even know which direction should i head for.

Had an outing with frens this afternoon. while i smile and shop, like usual; something is torning me so hard from the inside. i couldn't tell, because they are beyond words. i felt so pain, and i shred my tears quietly. And i smile.

i reached home, and i took my bath where water wets my face till i cant recognize which source are they from. i burst into tears, till tears blurred my sight. after bath, i sit at a corner and wrap my arms around myself; while letting my thoughts flashed back. i headed to sleep instead, but i couldn't sleep at all. i stared into the darkness, and i don't know what to do next.

i think of my teddy bear i love the most, for i do not know what i shall name him now.

he seems so happy in this picture, but i don't think he is now.
just like me.
but he is the only one i have now.

-tingyi-

2011 wohoo~

2011-01-02T23:16:00.005+08:00

Yay! finally 'get rid' of my old blog design. now lemme present everyone out there with a new look! *cheers* =D

oh well, year 2010 has just ended, and let's welcome year 2011! *cheers again!*

but sadly that every rose has a torn, and the torn in this beauty is that my exam is coming so soon. ARRR! and hey, until now, i havent even revised anything YET.

hmmm..i think maybe i should just let the pictures tell the rest.

enjoy my 2010 year end's blast ;D

Christmas decoration at Mid Valley.

oh well, it looks scary but artistic at the same time!

♥♥♥ ballet ♥♥♥

gosh! IT IS SO FLUFFY CUTE!!!

*squeeze squeeze!!*

teddy riding a horse! awwwww...

left right left, like toy soldiers, step by step..♥

Countdown session over Sunway piramid, there it ended year 2010.

2011, a new beginning! =)

A blur photo, but i kinda like it for several reasons.

and hey look, lynn's looking at the camera too! =D

hmm..a least i got a decent pic in the end!

ngek ngek ngek..

year 2010 has ended. 2011, a new year, a new hope. live strong and strive harder for future, make it a year with no regrets. things may be new, but be no new to the world! goodbye 2010, and lets cheers to welcome 2011! hey my frens, let's have a great year!

-lavoa-

如果你不是真心, 我但愿你没来过。

2010-12-19T20:23:00.002+08:00

如果你不是真心，我愿你没进入过我的旅程，
应为你说的每句话我都会相信，
并满满的期待你说过的每一句话。

我很容易感动，也很容易满足；
但我偶尔会小气，
也都应为我在乎你。

就算你伤害了我，
我依然固执的站在那里，
也只应为我不想留给自己太多遗憾，
等待你投入我全部的真心。

2010-11-19T21:45:00.001+08:00

是不是你忘了？
不，是我该忘记了。

2010-09-27T09:02:00.002+08:00

gosh! only one week left before college starts! feel so busy all the while during my holiday. it's all about work work work and WORK! n currently still working! and still pending for jobs that haven't started!

WOW.

tired weih. though i have no idea why a person having break would be groaning tired. too busy stalking people on facebook sometimes? haha..well anyway, there were times where some people crossed my mind, especially some particular people whom i have hurt unwillingly before. it is not that i want to go back to those time, but realizing them enjoying and working hard on their lives now made me feel relieved and happy. it has been great to have known them, and being friends and spending time together was totally awesome. miss those moments somehow, yet we cant wind back the time like nothing had happened. it is even more impossible to savior our previous friendship. what's more, i have my life to carry on rite now. but this doesn't mean that i can and would forget what happened, because i do appreciate those times, and i appreciate more for them to have crossed my life.

roughly to say, those feelings have faded because of replacement, but my appreciation would always stay for them.

thank you, i hope you know who you are.

-lavoa-

back to LIFE.

2010-09-13T12:41:00.002+08:00

Has been quite some time that i dint update my blog. my first year degree was good and i'm currently enjoying my two months break.

while having my break, i am learning to earn money by myself through part time work, and i had really met a lot of friends and people. it was good though, having to be able to expose myself to the real world. however, working all day long had really worn me out badly. so hey, earning money is not an easy task at all!

still around one month to go before i get back to college. hope i can learn more practical thingy before i get back to study then! =)

ciao!

-lavoa-

2010-07-22T01:02:00.004+08:00

how many lies u can bear from the same person? once, twice, trice, or so on? i am tired and really feel like giving up on you.

loving u is hard, but letting u go is harder.

i cant bear to go to sleep and dream about you everynite, lying on ur shoulders or wrapping myself in your hug..and then wake up, only to realize that it was just a dream, and knowing that i can only remain those good moments in my dream which no longer exists in real.

u know how much pain is this? do you know how much pain is it when thousands of knives which you cant see stabbing on your heart alive?

cut your skin, hurt urself physically! and you would know no pain is more real, than the pain in your heart.

-this is me, this is tingyi.-

THIS is my favourite poem.

2010-07-05T23:51:00.002+08:00

-carpe diem-

carpe diem,
seize the day.

gather ye' rosebud while you may,
o' time is still a flying.

this same flower that smiles today,
tomorrow will be dying.

2010-06-27T18:00:00.003+08:00

我从小，就害怕失去。
长大后，我领悟道如果我不去抓紧一样东西，我就会失去它。
虽然傻傻酱继续地去抓着是有点痛，
可是一旦失去了，会更痛；
更会责怪当初自己没有努力过。

应为很重要，
所以多痛我都不愿意放手，也放不了手。

也应为我在等待，等待你那一份专一的到来。
痛的不是等待，痛的是等待没希望的等待。
我不知道我可以等多久，应为我不知道我哪一天会完全的崩溃。
虽然现在有一点痛，但我依然还在等待；
等待那一天的到来。

-tingyi-

2010-06-26T03:07:00.002+08:00

i hate this place. like i shouldnt have come.

happiness was a dream to me. i have to wake up in the end.

i dont own the world and i dont even own anyone.

i am not important.

and i shouldnt have come.

i just want to go back to a place where i can call it home.

-lavoa-

2010-06-13T11:57:00.000+08:00

If I live, make me live.
If i die, let me die.

-lavoa-

2010-06-13T11:09:00.002+08:00

it is dated 13th of June today.
it makes me realized that i spent 10 days in this month in tears.

when can they stop?
or perhaps, to make it clearer, when are you going to make it stop?

i cant take pain any longer.
because I DID NOTHING WRONG.

"Somewhere Over the Rainbow"

2010-06-10T17:53:00.000+08:00

Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high,
There's a land that I heard of
Once in a lullaby.

Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue,
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true.

Someday I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far
Behind me.
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me.

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly.
Birds fly over the rainbow.
Why then, oh why can't I?

If happy little bluebirds fly
Beyond the rainbow
Why, oh why can't I?

2010-06-05T18:36:00.003+08:00

assuming there are 30 days in a month.
i spend 15 days crying. and the rest in blue.
i am not exaggerating, nor trying to imply anything.

i feel so left out.
like a demon, and to you staying away from me is the best thing ever.
so lost, so lonely.

you know what? i have not been happy for a long time.
can someone..help me?

2010-05-30T18:27:00.002+08:00

cant sleep well recently.

how i wish that you are lying to me this time.

and How i wish that this is just a nightmare.
when the moment i wake up and open my eyes, things would be just fine.

do things have to happen in its destined ways?
or can we change it?

love you, always.
-lavoa-

2010-05-19T20:09:00.003+08:00

well, it is so obvious that my blog has become an emo one. dun question me why because i am trying to be happy as well. because there is still something that stuck in your heart, even when you are happy, you will always feel like lacking something that completes the actual happiness. and when you are smiling, you feel like taking it back as well because you would think that smiling isn't something that suits your feeling. okay. what shit am i talking about. but the phrase 'for one second you spend for unhappiness, you lost one second of happiness' keep on ringing in my head. so, i am seriously trying my best to be happy.

when somebody asks you what you want, what would be your answer?
money? money? and still money? no doubt that money is so important for human survivor, but i think that there is something that is needed to complete the happiness out of it.

when YOU asked me what i want, i always told you that i wan baggies, shoes and clothes. but how much value they are actually carrying to me? though they need to be bought by gold, but is that really the thing i want the most from YOU? deep inside my heart i was trying to tell you that what i wan is your heart. i wan your love. the true one.

and for me, LOVE is the combination of
understanding,
faith
and loyalty.

again, i am trying to be happy. make me smile, with heart.

Flightless Bird, American Mouth

2010-05-12T22:02:00.002+08:00

this song is still my favourite.
it'd never failed to wine up my soul and let me sink in the romance, childhood memories and the nice melody it holds.

i wish that my love story will be like a nice melody, which has its ups and downs.
but it never ends as the melody continues to go on, with the sweetest sound ever in heart.

-lavoa-

2010-04-24T23:46:00.002+08:00

WAO. totally lost touch with my blog. life has been so busy since the commencement of my degree life. fucked my mid-sem papers though.

things dont go well for me recently, or perhaps, since the beginning as well.

sometimes, you shouldn't be pointing your finger to me. point it to you and look at yourself of what you have done wrong at first.
too much to take, too much to hold.
my heart is empty, and i am too numb to feel any pain.
i do not know how long i can hold, but i know that i am already tired.

history taught me one thing, that is to ALWAYS look back at the past, learn from the past, and keep the past in your heart. once bitten, twice shy is the reason.
question. should I?

YOU KNOW I AM FINE.

2010-02-17T23:42:00.002+08:00

the week isnt pleasure to me. things keep on reappearing in my mind, so reluctant to get away as i wished they would. I AM FINE are the words that keeps on splitting out from my tongue.

i dint cry at the middle of the night and stayed awake till the next morning and my found my eyes swollen. and i dint wake up in the morning and think of that shit and started crying. and i dint ruin my mood whole day by bringing my mind back to that shit.

NO I DIDN'T.
and
I AM JUST SO FUCKING FINE.

-lavoa-

so that you will read.

2010-02-17T23:23:00.002+08:00

名牌货，知道了是假货，又如何相信它的真呢？
人也一样。
感受过了假，又如何重新一次，用颗碎了的心去再给予信任呢？
问题不是在于我，而是在于你。
你懂吗？

My Stomach!!

2010-02-09T01:53:00.002+08:00

again, blogging life was totally out for me. and now, i am finally back! but just for a while lar..life has been so busy and hectic. )=

and now let's talk about my last week. to describe, i could say that it was terribly NASTY. i was stick and stuck in the bed for 4 days due to unwell stomach. until now i still dont have a piece of idea whether it was caused by food-poisoning or serious gastric. just went to the clinic and told the doctor that i ate wrong stuff then took the food-poisoning pills that he gave.
yet after three days still stomach pain.
wat larr..
well, to start my first day of terrible disastrous experience, it was just so damn kesian that i vomited 5 times during middle of the night. the type of vomiting is that i vomit until i had no strength to get back up even. then the next day i found myself sticking on to the bed, not having even a single strength to lie up.
gets better after all with the passing of days..

and now, i am just so darn freaking busy with my college work, just because of sticking too much to the bed. and supposed to be doing my homework now, instead i was playing country story just now. n now, wat am i doing still?!

chow people!!

-lavoa-

Degree Life!

2010-01-23T15:09:00.002+08:00

hey people, i am finally back to blogging again! WAO. been such a long time since i last blogged. life has been so busy with the commencement of my degree student life. well, i am currently taking Accounting and Finance in Taylor's, a UWE programme. after two weeks soaking myself in the course, i can say that this is different from my foundation course. there is no spoon feeding from lecs and tutors any longer. self initiative is so important to be possessed. well, no doubt that i hate this. )=

fine fine. no more boring stuff about my degree life. one more thing. due to the moving of my college from TBS to Lakeside campus, i am moving to a new place to live as well. and guess who am i living with?? doot...doot..doot..doot??? okay, keep the surprise away right now! i m currently living with Michelle and Wonderful!! three noisy crazy girls living together, hope the apartment wont collapse then. ;)

oh yea..before i chow, just to update you guys, i am currently addicted to cooking. hard to believe right? well, to know more about my cooking skill, just refer to Wonderful! *wink*

ciao now people~
*hugs hugs*

-lavoa-

MUAR's OTAK OTAK!!

2010-01-05T23:36:00.002+08:00

promoting Muar's otak otak here!! before this, just to make it clear that otak otak which is also a.k.a brains brains in english aint made of brains kay? i wont gona eat brains definitely.

see the pics taken! (=

cant imagine how many otak otaksss on the table rite? hehe

can make into swords sumore..

and of coz, best otak otak ever!!
YUM YUM~

-lavoa-

i feel nothing.

2009-12-22T00:14:00.004+08:00

have you ever feel like losing yourself and found out that you are actually floating in the air, alone?
and smiled while indifferent and numbness were only what you could feel?
and happiness is what you couldn't touch and irritates?

so blue. so lost. so indifferent.
i wish i could be me, again.

-lavoa-

Teddy Bear!!

2009-12-16T21:19:00.003+08:00

As a teddy's lover freak, here are some pictures about them. before that, i dun own them lar..just browsed and went across these images at google. =D

sweet~
^^

artist bear!
=D

street samseng indian bear.
see the muscle..damn handsome whey!

ABUSH!

and finally,

life is short.

-lavoa-

HOLIDAY!!!

2009-12-05T21:05:00.003+08:00

hye people!!
well, having my one month break now. currently at my little hometown enjoying the repeating routine of my daily lives. enway, just finished my foundation a week ago! kinda sad having to be parted with my foundation friends. but still, there it ended my finals! finally it was put to a stop with the passing of the ticks of the clock after a long struggle having to keep on sticking my nose to the notes. duh! kinda hate that since freaking strictly no entertainment was allowed during that period. either you choose to have fun and die your papers or keep on sticking your nose to the papers to colour you result. well, student's life aye..

well, my holiday..let's start talking bout that..movies, food, slumber, teddy bears, facebook..but not forgetting one more, DRIVING!! okay, before this, dont say a word. honestly i havent gone for driving lessons YET. n today was my first time driving experience.

parking? nice.
u-turn? nice.
hill? nice.
engine died? lagi nice.

damn grateful i dint kill myself on the road today. GILA. went out to the road there though today was just my first time. even drove back home wei! but after all, i think i m renowned as the most dangerous driver in the decade ever. ever imagine my engine died when i am making turn at the traffic junction where cars are accelerating beside me? totally gila wei! so thank God that i m still alive rite now.

and tomorrow i m still having my another driving lesson. bless me. oops..having aching back now, haih..getting aged, that's why. =.=

kay lar, then i chow dy la people! ciao!

you are in my mind every single second. things are not going well for you recently, so kinda worried about you sometimes. how i wish i could be there for you.
love.

-lavoa-

so random that i wanted to type something.

2009-11-24T19:06:00.005+08:00

yes i am here again!!

so rarely adding post over here lately..guess what? my foundation is gonna end soon! happy plus sad feelings mixed up and well, life goes on isnt it? having finals currently. keep on cramming words, calculations and theories into my little brain. will throw them off once the exam ends! (=

enway,met two Samaritans in my skul library today.

first stuff..
entered library n got the key for my locker. and then i attempted many times to unlock the locker to put my stuff in. but..duno y the locker keesiao one and din open though the key fit in nicely. and beside me was a sexy lady with low straps AND I AM NOT ASKING YOU TO IMAGINE. well she offered help..and there it went! my locker! (=

second stuff..
the time i got so freaking sleepy and wanted to go back for a long slumber and so i left the library. and i walked walked and walked..then suddenly a guy was running plus chasing after me. and then he handed me my student ID!!! wah lao a...since when i dropped my student ID i oso duno ler..but luckily i had a little bit of luck today. student ID was saved!! (=

there it went the story of the two samaritans. things got funnier after i stepped out from the library till i reached my home.
when i got myself into the lift to go down to the ground floor from the 11th floor library, funny shit..two students were chatting stuff about the finals paper. one said that the access to past year papers is not available then another said, 'aiyo..can get it from the black market mar..' then suddenly one lecturer standing beside them retorted,'eh, y so racist? you can say green market wat..' then then then, you just imagine my sweating face lar...and so the guy continued, ' green, white, yellow..' and no purple. but hey, YELLOW?! y so racist larrrrrrr!!!

then when i was on my way back, a guy in a group at the other side of the road was looking at me with some kind of amazement. the kind of staring which kinda described me as a close friend who had lost touch with him for thousands of years. tingeh..saw thick clouds on my head..just ignored him enway, nothing to say wat..=.=

so those grateful plus funny stuff was put to an end after i reached home. havent encountered any further interesting stuff so far besides of sleeping over time. thanks to somebody who 'helped' me to turn off my alarm.
and before i chow, isit true that i am having another final paper tomorrow?
yes.
and one more thing, isnt that i am supposed to be studying rite now?
u say ler..

kay kay..off to go. wish me luck! =D

-lavoa-

Nugget a.k.a Notty II

2009-11-06T19:06:00.005+08:00

hey guys! well, i am back again! and now going to bring you guys to the wonders of Nugget a.k.a Notty again!! have you been missing him? here it goes... =D

first of all...

Introducing Madness Immortality..

Scroll down the screen..

and found himself on the screen!!
*wink*
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and see this..
i secretly took his picture when he was bathing..
GOTCHA!!!
(=

but bathing without water lar..
=.=

and then this is the way he usually dries himself up after bathing..

enjoying the warm wind..
wooooooooooo~
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and now, let's get the explore of Nugget a.k.a Notty's life begins..
let's just start with his pals..

not sure bout this fellow's name but one thing.
Nugget a.k.a Notty is touching his KETIAK.

WAO. this friend har, scare die ghost wei..
piling all sorts of colours on itself, so much worse than a christmas tree.
but Nugget a.k.a Notty just likes its big belly.

(=

And play dead when this lion fellow is in his sight.
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AND THIS!!

erhemmMM...

and he thought that he saw dinosaur's eggs.

sort of like getting his neck ready to be executed on the clock.
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and now, let's explore the ways i tortured him..
*evil grin*

ouch.

ouch!

and OUCH!!!!!

Last but not least...
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TAR DANG~~~~

a kiss for JAY CHOU!!
^^

before i chow, one thing to say..
I KNOW THIS IS VERY RANDOM larrrrrr..
and there it goes the name Madness Immortality. =D

-lavoa-

2009-10-18T22:50:00.002+08:00

JACKIE CHAN KASPERSKY 2010 COMMERCIAL

WHAT!???
kung fu with anti virus?
cyberworld kung fu maybe..

Another piece of inside joke.

madness immortality, lavoa.

YES, i am back again.

2009-10-09T16:59:00.003+08:00

WAO. had been losing touch with my blog for quite a long time. okie, here i am! haha..n guess wat's is my condition while i m typing over here? got my hair plus body washed without shampoo, sumore using natural water. cool rite? let's give a YAY to it since it's a warm up activity for my tomolo's water activity!! hiak~

hate rainny day during the wrong time..

well, wat have i been busying much recently? a lot of things going on..assignments, piled up homework, outings, n sum SHHHHHH...okay la..nth lar..oh yea! my freaking mid-sem result. screwed 3 out of 4 papers. duh~and one more thing. should be glad not just getting myself another bruise at my right leg, i got two RED BUTTONS (inside joke..) at my left knee. stupid blardy slippery tbs floor..suffered for one week plus plus dy wei n the red buttons still sticking themselves on my knee..apala ni..so eh, dun simply press any of them ler, blow me up later then i habis lo..

INSIDE JOKE.

and hey, still remember Nugget a.k.a Notty? press your fingers together tightly for his showing over here once more! hehehehehehe..
gotta chow dy lar.
TATA~

-lavoa-

Beauty over Paradox

2009-09-25T15:06:00.002+08:00

i fall towards you naturally, without any theory and without any limit, but a freefall without any boundary where the end i couldn't meet.

And i hope there is no any boundary.
-love you.-

HOLIDAY!!!

2009-09-19T16:44:00.003+08:00

hey, back again! well, past few days i had been busying with my mid-term exam. so definitely it means a lot of studies..and also..COUGHING. damn thing for that! i coughed for the whole week wei! and sumore i went to see doctor in the middle of the night just because i beh tahan already. SIAO.

and yesterday was the last day for my exam. before i continued, actually..I SCREWED MY EXAM. hate exam. @.@
so once i finished my exam yesterday, i bounced back home to get some sleep before heading for the movie, G-Force. actually, it would be better if the guinea pigs' (at first i thought they were just hamsters..) voice could be babies' voice. well, the movie wasnt SO nice as to be expected but it wasnt bad as well. maybe i could just sum up with two words --- SO SO.
after the movie, i went back home again to..erm..sleep again..okay okay! i know i m kinda piggie lar..always sleep punya..actually sleeping is a very good exercise you know..(i duno where i got this crap idea. it's not a kind of exercise even..)

so after the another slumber, i went for dinner before and again heading for another movie. two movies in a day. GREAT. well, the movie that time was Where Got Ghost. it did give me a scare lar and the movie ends with a very nice ending. of coz, it has some funny craps inserted in between the whole movie, so it was kinda not bad actually. perhaps, a thumb up for it! well, after the movie, as i am sometimes a pig..u know what i did next la..and it would be nothing else than going back to sleep, AGAIN.

=.=

and today would be my last day in subang before going back to my hometown for..only three days lar..lol

so that's it for my today's post. have a nice holiday as well!
stay tune buddies!
chow~

(p/s: would be missing you..)

-lavoa-

I AM HERE TO SAVE MY BLOG...

2009-09-07T18:47:00.004+08:00

hey buddies! okay. first of all, i know my blog is dying over here, so please dont grumble about that. had been busying for the past few daysss. actually, there were a lot of things happened throughout, but i just din really have the time to just sit down and type sth over here. and right now, i am typing with my dinner beside me. pity fellow..lol

just about half an hour ago, i was making my way to wash my piled up dirty clothes. and while i was reaching the washing machine, WAO. i glided. cool right? well, to make it clearer for you, i actually din walk on a pool of water, instead, i glided. so did that tell you what i was about to say? and yes, it actually means that i was about to fall. HALT. i said ABOUT only har. okay, let me continue my gliding thingy. so of coz, i glided and glided more and then bang here bang there and finally i hit a big fat pillar just right beside the washing machine. and guess what? the big fat white pillar actually saved my ass from flattening. PHEW~~ seriously, i cant imagine what type of bruise would i get if i really did fall. that would be muthafucking painful with no doubt since i was carrying the heavy pile of clothes. so thanks to the white pillar!!! u rocks wei!!! heeee..

well, that was sth brief about my so called one of my 'exciting' things that happened. (would be more exciting if i really fell down..)
oh yea! not forgotten something! rest in pieces -----> Final Destination 4!!!
WAO.
to tell the truth, i dont usually scream when watching horror flicks, i mean those ghostly ghostly spooky spooky movies lar. but this one, DAMN!! i screamed wei~ the most excruciating part when i watched was that, you know the person would gona die, horribly and you just cant bear the going-to-see scene, and that's why, i SCREAMED~~
enway, if i wasnt mistaken, in the whole cinema, i think i was the one who screamed.

okay. i would just put a stop over here first. off to continue my stuff.
ciao~

-lavoa-

A Night to be Remembered

2009-08-23T18:24:00.004+08:00

heys! well, couple days before i went to a lot of places in one night with michelle and her friends. few of the blasts are the kajang's satay and also my 'very-first-snooker' game! gaga~so excited about it though i was totally a hopeless player. of coz, not forgotten the breath-taking night view at the putrajaya bridge. after all, one major thing about the trip to putrajaya is that it was superbly awesome wei!!

so here are the several pictures taken. (=

beautiful? it's so much better in reality.

it looks like a mushroom..

two daring fellars lying at the middle of the road..

"wei, cars are approching dy lar~"

michelle and i were acting cool..
cum on! let's shine our gangster looks!

MODELS!!!!
anyone hiring?

people of that night!
well, of coz not all, since michelle was holding the cam.

so, after the shot at putrajaya, we went to a lot of places again. no pictures taken because i nearly dozed off during the journey. and guess what time i reached home? it's 7.30 am. oops..another new record!
oh yea..and guess what time i woke up?
5.30pm babeh!! great rite?!
=.=

after all, i think that is roughly about this post.
off to continue my stuff.
so see yea!

*hugs*

-lavoa-

Purple - BARNEY!!!!

2009-08-21T20:47:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MS NURLEENA!!!

well, today is my BELOVED english tutor, Ms Nurleena's birthday!! but since today is a school holiday, classmates n i celebrated it with ms leena yesterday. (ms leena was so touched enway..XD)

well actually, i decided to blog today isnt simply just greeting ms leena HAPPY BIRTHDAY over here,

BUT...

as i am sometimes, or perhaps, most of the time, a hyper person, i crapped a lot during her class. definitely, i m one of the monkeys in the class! that's what ms leena called us..
just to annoy you, i am going to blog several pieces of my craps over here..so enjoy them well! ^^

1st.
(ms leena was ticking the attendance paper..)
lavoa : miss miss! tingyi is not here! i cant see her!!
ms leena : (giving me a weird looking expression, somehow i think that she is thinking i am a person with mental problem who's just lucky enough to run out from the mental illness center.)
lavoa : i was just telling the truth marr..

2nd.
(during exam time..)
ms leena : Bags at the side! i repeat, bags at the side!
lavoa : what?! BACKSIDE?!

3rd.
(during class while discussing some stuff's answer..)
ms leena : yes, you are right.
lavoa : miss miss! you know why is it right? BECAUSE IT IS NOT LEFT!! wahahahahaha..
(in the whole class, only i myself was laughing.)

okay. i think it's enough already so far. seriously, there are still A LOT more, but the craps just went out directly from my mind n i din really store them well in my brain. would lose a lot of brain juice if i continue to squeeze more you know..after all, as can be seen, i am just one of the monkeyish monkey in the class isnt it? PROVEN.

fine, let's just put a stop to this post after several twaddles over here again.
chouz~
before that, did i annoy you?
hopefully i did!
^^

(p/s: i am just trying too hard..)

-lavoa-

Trust versus Shit

2009-08-19T22:00:00.003+08:00

well, i have no idea why am i blogging at this moment, wondering to write on certain things that give me some twitch recently.

as it is true for some people, when a person gets more angry and couldnt find a better way to vent off the crammed resentment, one would tend to find a better way to shout it out i.e blogging. and that's why i am here rite now.

i have no idea since when the fog blocking my sight and the dimness that covered the truths started to lose their supremacy over my life. i have been pondering is that a good thing or the other way round and no matter how i ruptured and cracked my head, i still didnt have any piece of conclusion about it.

when one day you finally woke up and found out that you had been fooled by someone else? what would first be on your mind?
rage?
broken trust?
hatred?
or..pardon since everyone makes mistakes?
well, for me, up to a certain period, i would find myself being too stupid for being angry with somebody. i shouldnt have been angry with the 'particular' person as one doesnt worth any piece of my fucking anger. so in the end, i preferred pardon out of numbness. cheers for that? too early. fine. before i continue, i am shitting here rite now just because of the trust i had been putting on somebody was being smashed to smithereens by that person's own act. let's just call that person Shitman which makes my life so much easier over here. n guess what, i felt kind of pleasancy calling the shitman Shitman. (venting off..)

well, the shitman was shitting a lot of crap on shitman's own. shitman was supposed to be clean afore but the shits just stainned like no tomorrow and made the shitman really stinks like a shitman. (i just realized that i am fucking damn talented in shitting on people..)

HALT.

back to the stuff that shits on shitman. well, i put trust on shitman afore and shitman never appreciated my piece of shit. there it went, a broken trust, the first one. pardon was made while i swallowed the rage hard down that i nearly chocked myself. but guess what? since i used the word 'first', then there it went the second one. it revealed the rest of the shits asses shitted out by shitman's asshole. and they just provoked me. since i still couldnt get my numbness over the shitman's second wave of shit, i still couldnt go for pardon again so far. hard to reach enway once you found out how disappointed you are made as not only one shot were made to you. seriously, shitman is just so revolting as the shits were revealed and publicized out but some people just couldnt see it. damn! i wonder how the shitman actually covers the shit face with a lovely flower and call that shit face an innocent look, while the shitman is indeed the evil serpent under the flower?

there are just too many fakeness strewned upon in our life. though we fake sometimes, but there is a limit up to the acceptance. trust is meant to be built, not broken.
would disappointment rules against pardon?
i cant tell right now.

-lavoa-

Randomness + Suiness

2009-08-14T01:15:00.002+08:00

Precaution for H1N1.
picture was taken during Mr. Nakiran's lecture. the next moment after i captured the picture, he was warning us not to camwhore during his class.
OOPS!!

okay, that was just something random. there are rather many thingies happened today. well, i should just brief two things over here or else i m sure this post would be full of crapssss.

the first one, one word, "DAMN!"
here's the thing. today one cat entered my house and so me as a pet lover, i went to pat the pet, cat. (train your tongue..haha) and then the cat was doing something so called seducing act, curling its tail around me.
okay, before i continue, the cat was quite adorable. that's y i kept on patting it..

UNTIL...

"MEOW~"

OUCH!!!!!!!!!

WAH LAO A!!
YOU!!!
URGH!!!!
!@#$%^&*()

and the next moment, the whole house was filled with my voice.
"My face is ~~wounded~~ ~~injured~~ dented by the cat!!!! ARRRRR~~~"
after that, my housemates speeded towards me and one thing they did was LAUGHING.
they told me i would turn into a cat and have fur all around my body after getting a cat's scratch.

=.=

so so so, that was roughly what happened and...wu wu wu wu wu wu~
i wont gonna pat cat anymore, cats are evil.
kitten would be fine. *sigh*

okay, topic switched. let's talk about my second "sui-ness". guess what? i got another bruise on my leg AGAIN. gigantic size sumore.

god bless me? please do so.
haih...
kayy lar, wan oi oi dy lu..
it's 4 sth in the morning since i just finished pool-ing..hiak hiak hiak..XD

so see yea my readers! keep in touch!
and, nite..^^

-lavoa-

The Wonders of Nugget a.k.a Notty

2009-08-09T22:29:00.005+08:00

heys! well, i received a demand to blog about Nugget a.k.a Notty. so here's it!
but first of all, let us explore some basic details about Nugget.

Owner : Mickey a.k.a Mickey Mouse
Official name : Nugget a.k.a Notty
Birthday : 25 June (insufficient detail by the owner so the year of birth remains unknown.)
Height : 9cm
Interest : camwhoring
Ambition : becoming a nugget factory superstar

okay. here's the shot. what is so interesting or you may call it "adorable" about Nugget?
just let the pictures tell!

small=cute

awwwww.....

to be honest, it helps me to picture about a criminal being arrested.

a piece of nugget hanging on the wall.

well, this is random.

consuming calcium helps to grow taller.
(the plastic toy is giving an evil smirk wei...)

BFF!!!
^^

It just likes tissues.

" You evil crazy pirate monkey!! i'm gonna teach you a BIG lesson!!"

Nugget : tickle! tickle! tickle!!
Tweety : Itchy! Itchy! Itchy!!!!
(p/s: Tweety cant fly.)

so, that was basically some stuff about Nugget!
oops, nugget is getting roasted on a stove..
damn..have to chow dy! ciao!!

madness immortality,
-lavoa-

The Truth

2009-08-09T21:11:00.004+08:00

I was wrong about something in my previous post. Well, as a matter of fact, ~~Nugget Notty~~ Nugget a.k.a Notty actually has a MOUTH!!!

see?

long live Nugget a.k.a Notty's mouth. you can have your drink.

-lavoa-

This is Very Random..

2009-08-08T16:03:00.005+08:00

heys, recently have been busy. i have no idea where and what to start to write over here. so just let the pictures start the story!!

snakes fight!!

they have been staying like this for the past few weeks. and thanks to this owner, they would stay the same until one day this owner is too free and got nothing better than helping out.
may it happen!

OUCH!!

just make sure you stand behind the yellow line..

the bear's name is Nugget Notty.
thanks to its owner named Mickey Mouse, for it got a sip of orange juice though you can see, it is not sucking the straw.
(p/s: Nugget Notty doesnt have a mouth either.)

Pappa Rich's bun.
oops..not forgotten, Pappa Rich's toothpicksssss, Pappa Rich's fork, Pappa Rich's spoon and also Pappa Rich's chopstick.
oh yea! and also the mint leaves inside the Pappa Rich's asam laksa bowl!!!
thanks to my creativity that the person who was supposed to finish it was made sick by my piece of art.
WAHSON, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

introducing you guys my damn siao handsum housemate..
MONKEY MODEL!!!!!!!!
oops! he gonna fall..

inside jokes,

-lavoa-

B.R.U.I.S.E

2009-08-01T12:20:00.004+08:00

heys..ever done an experiment about bruise?
and how much do you know about the wonders of bruise?
here is it.
thanks to my room's table for granting me this once in a lifetime opportunity to do the research.
oh yea, not forgotten to thank my carelessness for that case.
^^

the second day after the disaster.
observation : the skin was stiff and painful when applying pressure on it.
conclusion : very very painful. and ugly oso.

the third day.
observation : the bruise spread. the skin was still stiff and still painful when applying pressure on it but not as much painful as the previous day.
conclusion : still painful and my leg getting uglier as the bruise was spreading outwards.

the fourth day.
observation : the bruise colour was getting a bit lighter and less stiff.
conclusion : painful but still okay. my leg's still ugly so i couldn't wear short pants nor short skirts.

the fifth day.
observation : the bruise spread again. the skin wanst stiff anymore but still a little bit painful when pressure was applied on it.
conclusion : again, no short pants not skirts. not yet.

the seventh day.
accidentally skipped the sixth day due to the fact that i am an absent-minded person.
observation : wao. big improvement! the colour of the bruise was getting so much lighter. the skin was soft and smooth. not painful anymore.
conclusion : still ugly but will get well very very soon.

so.....

after the last day of experiment, for sure i will get back my clear and smooth leg after a few days!
and YES to mini skirt and short pants!!
^^

main conclusion :
u fool! why u hit your leg?!!

-lavoa-

CINDY!!

2009-07-24T23:36:00.007+08:00

CAUTION: THIS IS A LONG NONSENSE + CRAP POST. HOPEFULY YOU HAVE PATIENCE STICKING WITH YOU NOW.

So, today I went out with my hometown SAMPATEST friend ever!! Well, her name appeared on my blog several times before, and she is the renowned CINDY!! See her name already sooo attractive right? Wat’s more about her is that she excels in many things. Lem’me list out..first’s bout studies, then sports, badminton (though I so called ‘beaten’ her..XDXD), oh yea! She can sing oso (last time choir pres lerr) !! Ermm..piano as well (gred 8 wei..), wat else ler..talking crap? Let her win in that larr. Ya hor!! One more!! Splashing people water in the toilet!! Though most of the time she kena splashed by me..*champion~*

So, if you want her number, just ask from me. But she everyday oso very busy larr, busy answering phone calls from guys. Told you she is ATTRACTIVE!! Sumore I ~~like~~ adore her SEXY lips!! Hahaha..(shit..i sounded like a homo..)

so, cindy over there, SMILE!! ^-^

felt flattered again right? Hahahahaha

Uhmmm..so the outing..was damn so ROMANTIC!! Well, supposed that today would be three people including myself, but another one’s away from hometown…Hold on first..Leehui, I missssss you!!! Okay. Back to it. And as a result of it, only both cindy and I went out today. So.. she looked at me, I looked at her lor..damn romantic ler!! Made no difference with dating.

=.=

Okay..that’s still not the point. Well, after all, today she ~~DRIFTED~~ DROVE!! weeeeeeeeEE~~But best thing among all, her legs could touch the pedals wei!!!! (shit! Cindy gonna kill me!!!!)*running away*

Hold on..heard sth…

(you can run, but u cant hide..HEHEHEHEHEHE..)

OOOOPPS…

Okay larr, cindy, you grew a bit..erm..just A BIT harr, taller already. Happy?? Remember to smile~~hahahahahaha..

Well, today she drove(supposed to type the word“drifted” again)..to our secondary school.OMG!!! I MISSSSS seg hwa soooo much~ but when we arrived, kinda disappointed coz the garden was bald!!!! Where are the trees?? Global warming dy still wanted to cut down trees~~Well, we then walked walked and walked..towards the form 6 class. SHIT wei~ miss my frens soooooo much!! Couldn’t stop smiling and laughing when I greeted them..but one thing damn funny!! people said I bullied cindy coz I was wearing heels. hahaha..

wei, cindy, I dint say anything harrr..

okay okay, zipping my mouth now..

see the face expression afore? no mouth one!! told you I zipped it dy! (but still, I got my hands to type..hiak hiak hiak hiak hiak..)

Okay now. Back to normal state. too much craps and nonsense dy..hahaha..erm, well, we went to skul, supposed to take our spm cert from the kementerian, but wat the heck..it will only be out next year..wah lao a…so, I ended up only taking my extracurricular cert. one ‘siao’ thing about it, I thought I would get 7.(sth) after looking at others’ marks..instead, I got 9!!! Damn happy!!

Wei wei wei, I dint bribe the teachers harr..seriously and genuinely active in it one lerr.. *satisfied~*

So after that, we left our beloved seg hwa and had lunch..next followed by heading to a playground nearby my house.

And only BOTH of us..

told you it was a ‘romantic’ ~~date~~ outing!!! And then ler, kept on chatting and we laughed non-stop, seriously!!

SUDDENLY….

One uncle hor, who was at the opposite restaurant..he looked at us for quite some time, pointing at us to his frens sumore..and then lerrr, he approached us.

“want to have a drink together?”

Two words, “WAH” and “LAO”..

Btw, we managed to give him a faint smile while shaking our head..=.=

Luckily he just left after that. Good to make people embarrassed sometimes..haha

So we continued our topic after that..i just had SOOO MANY things to tell cindy!!Mostly, I was doing the talking, and both of us doing the laughing. I know this is swt..but, laugh at it please. Just open your mouth wide wide and hiss out “HAHA”. Thanks.

Before I continue, I am wondering y I have so much crap to talk today!!! Siao jorr la~ see cindy’s “superpower” until I was made ‘siao’ by her!! Peer pressure wei!! See, I crapped again..=.=

Erm..where was I just now? wait..referring back..ooo..the talking and the laughing part. So, after that we mostly finished crapping. Then suddenly hor, two malay guys on bike were approaching us..i sensed sth wrong, so I quickly asked cindy to CHOW. Luckily there were people around, or else har, if sth so called ‘bad’ things happened, I wondered how cindy ran since her flats..PIAK..btw, I couldn’t stop laughing watching her walking slowly, dragging along her blighted flats heading towards her car..just imagine me laughed till I had to lower down my body to continue laughing to avoid stomach cramp. Okay switch one way to describe. I laughed until I could hardly open my eyes. Does it make it clearer? Or perhaps, I laughed until my stomach nearly burst because too much air trapped inside? Uhm…Maybe I should say, I laughed until I couldn’t breathe and my face turned red because no intake of oxgen..arr…that sounded better.. Got it? It’s more in reality enway.

(apala..why I just couldn’t say “I laughed.”?!)

And then after the flats dragging and also my laughing, I went home.. that’s all with the romantic outing. Short but ROMANTIC!! miss cindy every single tick of clock when she’s not around.. (-.-lll) Btw, I am not having any mental disorder larr. NOT HOMO definitely!!

Wait..i heard a ques..

(just BI only right?)

Yaya!! LOL!! ;P

So that’s the end of story!! Gotta miss cindy for the next few hours before we gathered back again the next day!! ^^

Not forgotten, miss my taylor’s friends oso lerrr..esp MICHELLE!!!!! hehehehehehe..

Kay kayy. Gotta go now since i had wrote enough craps over here. So, bye~

Before that,

cindy, stop laughing.

And continue laughing if you are not cindy.

i believe cindy would flog my corpse after she killed me.

Madness immortality,

-lavoa-

Cheats!!

2009-07-23T12:36:00.002+08:00

hey there! well, i just searched for the sims 3 codes and cheats. guess what?! i got a list of it now!! so thrilled! wohooo~ finally, i can play it without bothering the cost of building a luxurious and creative home for my sims!!
so as well, it symbolizes the birth of a renowned creative ARCHITECT!!
^-^
okay okay..gotta bounce now for the sims 3!! seriously so excited to try on every single cheat i got! hiak hiak hiak..btw, if you are playing it, why not visit the lucky site?
click here!!

really gonna go now..so c yea my readers!
and hopefully the cheats work..XDXD
buh bye~~

R.O.T.T.I.N.G

2009-07-23T00:18:00.002+08:00

life is so much organized now...
two weeks of break, yet i am learning how to rot..

counting down...
cant wait for the commencement of new sem.
cant wait to meet my frens over there again!
^^

Paradox and Beauty II

2009-07-17T16:24:00.005+08:00

time ticks, time flies, time sprints.
could i still pick a flower and tell the whole world that it's mine?
could i 'ill make myself believe that i can fly high in the sky?
i've never pondered how fate leads n' how drastic it changes.
all t' struggles that strewn upon me taught and built me up.
yet, chances that hit once sometimes lost its grip.
but the choices that we made matter the most.

'ld i tear the buds of the flower and let it fly with the wind?
or should i hold it with love and with my heart?

i believe,
there'd be an answer when time made clear of everything,
and the rainbow is just somewhere behind it..

i would be fine,
-lavoa-

Cheers for Melatonin

2009-07-13T17:08:00.003+08:00

freaking day...

last nite, i slept at late night because of the BCP exam that freaks people out like me.
throughout, i struggled all the times by burning the mid night oil until i had no more oil to burn.
n then hor, the oil depleted, but my body kept on secreting the melatonin that kept my eyes wide open though i had already lost my brain that was supposed to be located inside my skull.
so so so, i had no choice but to leap to my bed and start PIGGING!
wei, i tell you har..duno y i couldn't sleep at all n kept on rolling on my bed for almost two hours!!
sumore i was yawning when i was sleeping..
this sounded stupid rite?
so, blame the MELATONIN!!

n then ler..i was supposed to wake up at 8 sth in the morning due to the fact that i am damn siao diligent..(erhmm...)
instead, my roommate woke me up at bout 7 sth..
wah lao a..
i hardly slept then u suddenly woke me up pula..

T.T

n after i prepared myself, including random strolling and oso day dreaming, i finally gained my determination to bounce to the library and STUDY!!
so for the first few minutes i was there..ho ho ho..DAMN STUDIOUS wei!!
but when the clock was bound to swing again and again, my head was swinging together with it..
GREAT.

so after the struggles..i headed back home to give myself some rest though i was nearly freaked out that time, sorting out how was i going to die the paper..
n when the nex moment i looked at the clock, shit!
it's almost exam time!!!
and...i havent finished studying.
okay okay. one word, "DIE".

without much delay, i grabbed my heels n made my way to the exam hall..
n after i reached there, i utilized every single second to study the chapters that i hadn't finished studying.
see, diligent at the last moment!! ^^

okay. it's time to talk about the exam paper.
first time saw it, one word, "DIE".
second time saw it, two words, "DIE DIE".
third time, "DIE DIE DIE".
and only came out with one conclusion..

DEMISE.

(Champagne anyone..??)

by the way, luckily today i went in the exam hall together with a secret weapon..
interested to know??
hiak hiak hiak..
actually ler..i brought in sth..
a GUN..
n watever ques that appeared in my sight,
i just TEMBAK..
so the paper as you can see..
got a lot of holes on it dy lor..

enway, i dint know why am i crapping such lame joke over here..again, blame the melatonin!!!!
yawning again..@.@
gotta get a nap then!
before that, tomolo is ECS paper..
all the best to me!!^^

and buh bye my readers~
*hugs*

paper,
FREEZE!!

-lavoa-

Severed

2009-07-11T23:53:00.004+08:00

the pain freezes and shivers me.
what i could do is just to wrap myself tightly with my arms,
and let my tears roll down naturally.

i thought i was strong,
but obviously,
i am not.

-lavoa-

Random One

2009-07-05T22:21:00.003+08:00

tired tired tired and just, tired.

assignments and presentations that worn me out the most had finally ended, indicating the approaching of the end of the semester. and yet, common sense for this, it probably means that my final is coming up.
T.T

fine. forget that first. as what a diligent student should do, that person is supposed to have started studying now.
okay. i m not the one!!
sumore the hell thing is that i havent started any.
facebooking and msn everyday..
C.R.A.P.

for how many times i had told myself to concentrate n study?!
n still, why everytime i juz couldnt drag my butt away from this com?!
n one more thing..
what am i doing now?!
BLOGGING?!!!
=.=

fine. off to study..
(actually i crapped only lar..coz later sure go facebook one..hehe)
btw, dropped by just to add another post over my blog since it is dying half way..
(=

okay okay..enough for the twaddles.
so, take care my readers!
ciao~~

=lavoa=

-Confession-

2009-06-29T18:37:00.007+08:00

With the new chapter of life i am currently involving in, i cant deny people's view about my changes. well, as a matter of fact, people change from time to time. however, i cant tell that i have totally changed but i did change. my perspectives have altered due to the things and people around me. for me, there is nothing wrong for me to have changed, not entirely though, just few perspectives that i viewed and judged few years before and now.

now, i could accept more things in my life. a sudden jolt back to few years before, i was utterly naive, with no doubt at all. still wondering last time, being excel in academic was the way i judged people. on the other hand, involving in so called 'bad things' like alcohol, clubs, smoking, snooker or even cybercafe could send me to a conclusion that that person is a so called 'bad peer'. this sounds silly though but that was the truth.

however, due to the change in environment, i don't mind anyone who involves in those kind of so called 'bad stuff' be involved in my life. somehow, i myself involved in some of them. so does this made people judge that i had changed? being physically bad? or even mentally?

well, things and people had widened my view on things. for me, it was hard for me to accept those things at first. however, when time passed by, being involved in some of them dawned on me that those were just nothing much. they were just simply 'entertainments' and wouldn't harm anyone. regrettably, people used to perceive that those people who involve in them are bad people, bad bad and just very bad. they found it hard to accept, not to mention if an old friend like i myself who suddenly involved in them, and they would come to a conclusion that that person had changed, intensely.

let's ponder. human changes their interest by surrounding. if someone involved in something else, does this mean that he or she had changed? and being involved in them made them a bad person, though they are kind in heart? as well, is it true to judge people through diligence and academic result? and ponder again, does it indirectly mean that being involved in those stuff denotes that a person is not paying serious attention to studies?

never forget, a bad apple from the outer view is sometimes a good apple. there is nothing wrong to be physically bad, and no one should judge people from outside especially from the activities which they involved in.

and just in short, what i was trying to say through this post is that, i did change but i dint as well. i did involve in some of the so called 'bad' stuff, but i am still the same person whom you met last time. the only thing which is different is that, i have become more open-minded and my perspectives were widened. i do mix around, but i know to choose between becoming a totally bad person or a good person and won't go to the extreme. i still have my sanity with me.

winding up,
it is the inner heart that matters, not physically.
don't just look outside, but deep inside.

-lavoa-

Just a Not-Very-Good-Day

2009-06-26T15:41:00.005+08:00

well, today started off very fine since i managed to pull myself up from my soft warm bed together with my lovely teddies aside..hehe..btw, i woke up at 6.20 am. damn early i noe..
mainly becoz i was too lazzzzzzzzy yesday..
too lazy to iron my clothes and oso too lazy to do a real rehearse for my today's presentation. so, leaving me no choice but to drag myself up early morning to get those stuff done.
as well, today's make up had to put in more effort. presentation wat..^^
so, i tried to bargain with myself by giving excuses to sleep for another few more minutes but NO WAY!

halt..heard sth..

"SLEEP SLEEP SLEEP! you PIG ar?!"

okay fine. so i washed up and of coz, ironed my clothes n the most important thing after all, MAKE UP!! XDXD
well, everything seemed to have gone fine so far. but when i reached the place i was heading, my group members werent there yet..@.@
(supposed to have slept longer..)
all right. then later i received a call from a fren and was on my way to head back home again..n then, after heading back, headed back to afore place again..
hold on..when i was leaving my house with my fren, PIAK!!
ARRRRRRRRRR~~~~~my bag spoilt!!
@!@#$%^&*
fine. that was the first shot.
after that, i relocated all my stuff to another bag and again, i left my house.
and finally, my group members were there when i reached M floor.
then of coz, what else besides of "START WORKING"!!
well, we were decorating the board used for our presentation.
damn childish board sumore..haha

and here's the pic of our board..

after completing the decoration chore, i only being acknowledged that our presentation was being pushed back to two hours later.
wah lao..why was i there so early lar~could have slept till 9 o'clock wei!
later on, one thing that i had not done so far in college, well, i did it!! ^^
truancy..hiak hiak hiak..
i purposely absent for bcp lecturer..
ops, would mr lim read my blog?
eaaaaa, i din say anything har..

well, since i so free, i actually headed back again to continue my slumber. but too stress lar, couldnt sleep..so no point at all..=.=
by the time i woke up again, SHIT!! it's raining!!
ARRRRRRRR~~~ i dun wan to carry umbrella lar~~~
fine. second shot.

then i could only wait for the rain to subside. in that case, only i headed out.
well, i walked and walked and walked..pools of water on the road due to the heavy downpour few minutes ago..
then u noe lar, when the vehicles passed by, what would happen to those pools of water.
so, third shot for being splashed.
sumore, it wasnt few drops of water, but A POOL of water.
!@#$%^&*$%

well, after meeting head on so many so called 'challenges' or you can call it 'disputes' i faced so far, i thought that i might meet the goods.
so, presentation hours later!!
tried to rehearse but..crap! why my brain empty one!!
CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP!!!
sumore looking at my classmates presenting in front made me soooo nervous!
ARRRRRRRRRRRR~~~~

(tick tock tick tock..)

oopsy..
here it comes..my turn.
well, my group members spoke before me as i was doing the concluding part, aka last speaker.
and during my turn..crap again.
once more, my mind was totally empty!
what happened to me?!
fine, another shot.
so i kept on referring the papers during the beginning when the tutors werent looking at me.
and one more thing, it was super freaking obvious that i looked nervous.
CRAP.
well, later everything did go well when i was about to end just that my beginning, an unexpected terrible disaster.

so after the presentation, i was so so so so so so and so relieved!
FREEDOM!! ^^

it's pool time then! hehehehe..
fine. another shot over here.
stupid aiming din work again which means, terribly beaten. =.=

well, after that i finally and again reached home.
and again, another shot here.
the shoes that were suffocating my toes left my toes muthafucking painful wei!!
*half-fainted*

alrite. gona shout again.
ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR~~~~
really bloody hell lar! wat'd happened to me all day long today?!
fucked up wei..

well, what i could say is that,
every dog has its day, but never forgotten, sometimes every dog doesn't have its day as well.
T.T

-bad luck me-